For us, for now ( still cautious you see ) we've entered a period of calm. I can still feel a little edgy at times and unsettled but using strategies I now have in place I can calm myself. Water seems to be the answer, the bathroom with a bath bomb, candles, soft music and tea or more recently the very relaxing pool at the gym. I'm enjoying my time out at the gym too, absorbed in my music and calorie busting !
We've done lots of lovely things as a family and have so much coming up to look forward to, it's quite an exciting time. Our household is often expanded now, we're more often than not a family of seven, my Henry is no longer so outnumbered ! I think it's been good having Warren and C around. We all compliment each other , it works in a dysfunctional way !!!! Although at times I feel I have six children, I've got all of them an Advent calendar !
I'm being well looked after by Warren, I found this quite hard initially not sure I'd experienced being cared for to this degree for twenty or so years if ever in adult life. I probably pushed him to the limits and caused him a lot of frustration in the initial months, poor man ! I'm determined our relationship remains balanced though and that I keep my independence and my social life. I'm not prepared to give up my own life this time and would hate Warren to give up his hobbies etc too. We're lucky as we get a good mix of time on our own as a couple, family time and time away from each other. I think that keeps our relationship working well.
At the beginning of the year I had a list of jobs I wanted to do on the house, it's no smaller ! Time just got away yet again and better options came along like going out ! I've only done the downstairs hallway. I do have a growing jar of money for the Playroom refurb fund, will change that into a games room etc in the New Year. With better shelving for Henry's toys. I didn't start any major jobs for a few reasons, this being a Victorian property nothing is ever simple, it's nearly Christmas and also I'm starting to sort out my divorce so financially it's harder to see what cash is available at the minute. So hopefully in the New Year, we'll start a room makeover or two ! Let's not hold our breath though ! I keep booking weekends away !
I'm hoping the divorce and financial agreement is sorted soon, don't want to line the solicitors pockets with my decorating fund. It will be good to get divorced it's been over 3.5 years. I need to say those words Ex husband now ! S and I get on alright so fingers crossed things run smoothly.
We're off to London Today on the train , Warren, Eloise, Millie, Henry and I . We'll meet S at the Imperial War Museum. So looking forward to seeing the revamped museum, we're so lucky to be able to see such impressive collections for free. Eloise is studying WW1 and WW2 in school so she's very excited as is Warren ! Tonight we're all staying in the Marriott ,Maida Vale I think as tomorrow we're going to the GOSH transplant party. Will be good to catch up with the #transplantfamily. Eloise will see some of the teenagers she went on camp with. I'm hoping S, Ŵarren and I all get along for that length of time, otherwise it might be interesting !
Next week brings us into December ,I'm sure the childrens activities will increase 100%. Leah's Saturday job in Whsmiths usually means Sunday and a couple of evenings too. Millie is in two dance Evenings next week, so Eloise and I are watching on Wednesday. I have just 6 shifts left at work, so plenty of time to get organised......maybe. Childrens gifts are nearly sorted but I'm really struggling with my parents presents. I've no ideas at all. Mind you I'm not sure what I want either ! I'll write the minimum number of Christmas cards I can get away with. Not really thought about food, except the stash of M&S biscuits and tubs of sweets....got my priorities right !
No hospital appointments except bloods for Eloise's Tacro level in a week or so, we used to go to Gosh clinc mid December which wasn't the easiest of times but we've now gone to January as that's when Eloise had her Angio this year, how can that be 10 months ago ! Has this year gone crazily fast or am I just getting old ? Time going fast can be a little scary when you are told your child's condition is life limiting but I'm positive we have plenty more sand in the timer and I can tentivly look into the future.
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