Optimistic and cautious can you even use those two words together ? Life is going well at the minute but I always feels this needs to be whispered in case Eloise's health or something else puts a spanner in the works and it takes a huge nose dive towards difficult. I find it hard to stay in the moment but I know life is now and it needs to be lived and enjoyed. In general I'm an optimistic person I guess if things get difficult I've got all my proven techniques to get me back on track mentally. I don't think it hurts to approach certain aspects of life with caution, dipping your toe in rather than diving straight in. I like a controlled life, it's easier for me. Should I take more risks ? Maybe but I've got four children in my care.
A few Facebook insights into the lives of others puts me back on track of living each day as it comes. Life truly is fragile and everything can change so suddenly and without warning. Instagram is a happier and more hopeful social media platform but is it sugar coated and not what it appears ? I don't know, I have a sweet tooth so it pleases me seeing fluffiness, sunshine and the odd animal snap too ! I like being happy , smiling and laughing and I like everyone in my life to be happy too. I hope I can bring a smile to you when you need one my friends.
This holiday has been wonderful, I've relaxed, I've swam, I've eaten too much and I've read 11 books. I've not completed my daily Fitbit steps, this pained me initially but what the heck it's two weeks, I've another 50 weeks to walk in ! I've spent quality time with my children when they've not been lured away by the wifi and Nickelodeon ! It's their holiday too so I don't mind, too much sun and fair skin doesn't mix that well. The suitcases are now packed and tonight we will say goodbye to this wonderful country. If you've not tried Turkey as a holiday destination I recommend it. Such wonderful warm hearted people, I'll miss our friends. Especially in the knowledge that it'll be a few years before we come back as I have already plans for our next adventures.
Adventures that's what life needs. I like plans and I like having things to look forward to. I'm looking forward to going to work on Thursday......a break from the laundry ! No seriously I can't wait to see my ladies and catch up with them. Hoping to have a cake dates on Thursday evening and Friday, maybe cider too. This Summer holiday has had to have military planning. I think every colour has been used on my calendar. The children are coming and going all over the place and add in work, I've had to be super organised. Which if you know me well you know I love it. Trips to festivals for Leah, Eloise a week in Scotland, Henry a week with his dad, Leah, Amelia and Henry a week in Spain, Eloise a madness concert.....the list goes on right into September. September will bring another huge change as Leah's off to University at Manchester Met. It'll be strange not having her around, just got to work out how the hell I'm going to get her and all her belongings up there. Any volunteers ????? I'm looking forward to bring reunited with gym, he's got a lot of restoration work to do......sorry I needed dessert ! I'm looking forward to going as an escape and some headspace, I need daytime TV , I need Homes Under the Hammer and a few tunes on Spotify. I think my Cath Kidston mug collection is calling me, looking forward to a pot of earl grey. Small pleasures that's what life needs.
I do want to bring the Sun home with me, initially to dry the washing mountain but I do love sitting in my deckchair drinking cider and reading. Hoping the weather is kind enough to allow me a NT adventure at the weekend, I want a weekend of Englishness ! Cream tea and manor houses plus a floral frock.
So another ending but I'm happy as there are many more good times over the horizon. Family time and quality time with my wonderful friends. Get your social schedules ready as we have plans to make my friends. So looking forward to seeing you all and a couple of new Lindybop frocks need to be taken out ! I know I'm bloody lucky with the life I have now but it's the struggles and heart ache I've gone through and the shadow of Eloise's health that has made me live each day with as much positivity and a sprinkle of sparkle. I'll never let anyone dull my sparkle again. Love to you all. X
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